The Magnolia and Maxwell Show

My lovely children are incredibly creative.  I was trying to up load a film of the "Magnolia and Maxwell Show", but the system is not letting me.  Instead here are a few pictures of Magnolia with her first lost tooth and Maxwell with his new hair cut!  I will keep working on getting the video up!

Random Thoughts

"Even when expected a loss can still come as a shock."  For some reason I have had this thought in my head a lot lately.  When I say loss, most people immediately think of death.  That is not necessarily true though. Loss can involve death, but can also be friendship, childhood, marriage, job, security or even just a loss of genuine faith in someone.


Being an optimist I always see the glass as half full so it is odd to me that I have such a negative thought swirling in my head.  Yet here I still sit with it, swirl, swirl, swirl.  I guess loss, even though it is not your own can effect you.  You empathize with others and imagine how they must be feeling.  Perhaps it is hard to identify what your loss is because it was minimal enough for you  not to appreciate it when you had it, but strong enough to miss it once it is gone.


Maybe it's not even loss, but realization.  The revelation of the fact that there is something you always wanted to do, but you can no longer do.  Perhaps it is something that you weren't even aware of wanting to do until you have realize that you are too old or to far away to do it?  Is it a process of aging to mourn the things that you are too old for?  Good bye American Idol shot or joining the military?  Maybe it is coming to realization that my kids will keep getting older; no matter how much I want to freeze our moments in time in their small years.  I know they will turn in to wonderful adults, a true reflection of their mother's love, but that doesn't mean I won't mourn it.


What about our friends or family's losses?  Is it possible to mourn for them, right along side of them, even if it isn't our issue.  When you love someone you can feel their pain, even if they are thousand's of miles away.  Maybe that's the toughest.  The fact that you feel their hurt, but you can't do anything but help them bandage it.  Help by being a listening ear and a shoulder to rest their weary head on.


I guess this is why we must live for the moment.  Love every minute of our lives yet take time to find balance within.  Acknowledge the different types of losses, embrace them and then move on with them.  We can never forget the different losses we have in our lives.  They have made us who they are today.  Even the ones we feel vicariously through loved ones help shape our future.  So we need to keep feeling our losses, changes and keep taking care of one another.